We were there in February, I can't remember the date exactly,but it was so warm here, that we had spring fever and wanted to walk the shore of Lake Superior. Off we went! We arrived and the shore was frozen, but the lake was so pretty and peaceful. I think it was a family vacation with River, before his baby brother arrived.
I wanted something to remember that time, and I wrote his name, with small pebbles that fill the shore, in the frozen edge of this beautiful lake. During the time it took me to do this (which was a while being 8+ months pregnant) , my husband was walking the edge of the lake. When he returned, he saw River's name and smiled. I decided that I didn't want to move his name, I would leave part of him there on that shore. As we walked away, I took this photo:
It's amazing to me, that I didn't realize this was over a year ago, but I remember that day like it just happened. I remember driving home, very late, after we had dinner and we talked the whole way (2 hours) about River, about our love for him, our fears, our faith and our family.
"Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity."
Henry Van Dyke
The first time I read this quote, I thought "time is too long for those who grieve, it's forever. It's the rest of my life!" It wasn't until today, that I realized I had overlooked the end of this quote, loving someone makes time eternal, I will love River forever. He may not be here for me to hold in my arms, but I hold onto him with my heart, and in my memories...like this crazy Febraury afternoon on the shore of Lake Superior.