Friday, February 25, 2011
This has been one of my favorite quotes, since the very beginning of this journey, when River passed away. Although I loved this, I wasn't sure I could ever have hope again. I really questioned my faith and wondered how this could have happened. It wasn't until I began to believe that if there would have been anything I could have done to save my sweet baby, God would have allowed me to, that my faith began to grow again.
Since this realization, I had hope. I have hope that I am being the best mother to River that I could ever be. I have faith that he is watching over his little brother. I know there are days that are harder and it is still dark at times, but the fact that I can move forward, carrying River in my heart is more hope that I ever could have asked for.
I am a much different person than I was 2 years ago, and this photograph is one that continues to give me hope. These flowers are from River's Garden last fall and Asher picked them as we were playing in the grass. I thought it was so sweet & I set them on top of this rock. The way the sun shines behind them is describes the immense presence River has in our lives. This is one photograph I have that represents both of my children, flowers that Asher picked in River's Garden. I have this on a necklace and most people see flowers, I see hope and love.
Posted by Deanna at 3:49 PM