Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Upset

I have just been incredibly upset lately, and again maybe it is because yesterday was the 30th. Maybe because it marked another month without my little boy in my arms. He would be 25 months old now!
Maybe because this is how Babe gets to play with his big brother:


I am not sure what has gotten me so upset lately, but I need to snap out of it. Despite the grief that has snuck up on me {yet again!} I have so much to be grateful for. I am the mother of these two sweet boys, and for that I am thankful. I just wish that I didn't have to wish so often that things were different.

On that note, I had a wonderful weekend with Babe while Daddy was at work, we played in the sandbox, snuggled and read stories, we drew pictures, played in River's Garden, went for lunch with Great Grandma & Auntie, we even got a strawberry shake!

I wish River were here physically to have been part of all that fun...

4 comments:

Tiffany said...

Deanna, even though we have a lot to be grateful for, we still get to be sad. I always think it's sad when we bring Max out to the cemetery. For some reason, he always squats in front of her spot for a second and then moves on... River's spot is beautiful. Hugs to you!

Raquel said...

I know how you feel. I loathe the fact that my two year old knows what a cemetary is....totally not normal.

Thinking of you!

butterflymom said...

I'm so sorry that things have taken a turn again. It is so hard the path that grief leads you on. It certainly strikes a chord with me at so many different times of the year. Doesn't even really seem to fit as to the exact why...but it just happens. Hoping things ease up again soon...I'll be thinking of you. Hoping we can meet very soon. I'm always keeping you close to my heart and thoughts.... ((hugs))

Becky said...

I hope things get better for you soon
Thinking of you always...

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